How to Tell You

I have been so determined to shut myself out of my own life, but I just cannot I´m so down and feel like I´m drowning isolation doesn´t help either I want to cry all the time and it hurts

Hi,

  I´m a sixteen year old teenage girl and I´m going through a lot right now. I grew up being called names from Elementary to High School and I have been through too much to take that any longer. I´m the type who loves seeing people happy, but won´t ever focus on myself being happy because I would rather many others be happier. You may be asking ¨why is a young girl like you writing this?¨ I have a reason to writclubmatee and I feel like writing is the perfect coping skill to get passed some things, but it has definitely not gotten me passed this. I have not been home for four weeks because I have been angry and depressed and I just cannot do this. I keep feeling like I do not belong and to an extent I think this feeling is normal, but I am just so tired. I take my medication I was prescribed and it isn´t working. I am hated by my dad´s girlfriend and apparently my sister too. I was there for my sister when she went through a lot of her stuff and she can´t even be here for me I spent money on her for a pregnancy test when she thought she was pregnant and I was a good sister for doing that. I am alone in my situation because she just keeps calling me names and her best friend Kellie which is also my dad´s girlfriend called me names too and I´m so f***ing tired of everything. I wish people would just be here and wouldn´t choose certain people over me, but that will never happen. Kellie doesn´t even want me to go on vacation  with them, but my dad does and if Kellie doesn´t want me to go then I´m going to try not to go because she is going to get what she wants. This isn´t fair I want to scream and cry and just need a door with a lock so I can lock myself in my room and not eat ever again. I hate everything and hate them why is it that I can be there for people, but when it comes to me the only one who is here for me who lives in the house is my dad??? AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I just want to leave so bad.