CompulsionA Poem by Heather Waldronbacksliding is a b***hWar
drums. Punishing
insistent pounding on
the underside of my skin; fire
blooming in
the eye of my muscles, bringing
my blood to
rolling boil.
My
body vibrates with
resistant trembles, but
no matter the months years of
remission, suddenly
I am nicking my fingers, grappling
with a shaving razor for
its blade.
Sharp
tease, indenting
my bubble flesh. I
feel my shoulders pretzel, granite
jaw and shivering teeth, DON’T but
the beat wails and as my fingers battle with the urge the boiling burns my rattled nerves to dust.
One (two four five more more more) purposeful twitch of my wrist waging
countless, victorious red lines.
-
I cut until the compulsion eases, and
my blood slowly cools into
a cold soothing
trickle like
the creek behind my house, and
nothing ever burns
there.
A
cool palm of water reassures
my spine that
this was right, (DON’T) and
when I open my mouth to
gasp in the stream, it
tastes of
quenching relief. © 2014 Heather Waldron |
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