She wants to hurt - she wants to love

It has occured to me recently that I could never settle for love. I have to ache for someone to be mine. This is for them that I could not love.

You whispered from behind

Soft breathe on my neck 

  'I could fall for you tonight.'

 

I cast my eyes down

I could not love you

Not now

Not after this

 

You make quick work of fears

I build a wall as you lace me into your heart

I can not stay.. in fact i'm already gone

As you kiss my shoulders, feel me shiver

        'I told you not to fall in love with me.'

 

I feel your sigh.. I've removed myself from this

I've let wander my heart -- it waits for my flesh

 

You have to let go of me now

You hesitate -- you measure my tone

It's desperate

 

'I think you could love me..'

I turn to face you, we both know this was close

 

I look deeply into a man who lets me in

I step back, your hands can be placed to your side

I am not for keeps

 

"I could love you, but not tonight, not now --

Perhaps not ever.  I need to ache and I am calm. I need to burn and I am cool.

I need desperation and I am content. I need suffocation, I am breathing deeply.

--- I need to ache."

 

I need hate, I could not love.

 

He searches me  --- Thinks of his ideas

Of me, of what I am

An actress, a temptress, an enigma

 

-How can she search for love, and fail to be content-

 

The doorstep does not necessitate an entrance

 

 

Reviews

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This is a question that we all ask ourselves at one time or another.
I love the compassion in this piece. Its kind of strange to see such
emotions explained so easily...but you did it very well. It seems that
this union would only lead to resentment as time passes on and happiness
is on a ship that has long sailed.

[Ryker Killian]

I dislike this kinda poetry, but you made it worth reading

[Tim Lion]

Fast-moving anxious flow really adds a certain snakebite quality to the content. I enjoyed this. Well crafted.

[fireblossom]

What can one say without gilding the rose?

I am impressed? A dull boy says such things. To express my feelings for your poetry I would need to be with you for hours. Simply allow me to ask you to please keep writing. That is my best compliment.

[Antonio Valentino]

I build a wall as you lace me into your heart

As you kiss my shoulders, feel me shiver
I told you not to fall in love with me.'

I started copying parts of your poem, but I realized that I would simply have to copy the entire piece. This is my favorite poem of your's. There is a wisdom, a knowing, a calm perhaps, an understanding in this that is different from many of your other poems. I really enjoyed it, very much.

It is nice to see you back dear friend. You have been missed my many.

Antonio xx

[DiMar4u]

been on both sides of that fence, neither felt so good. the way you captured it seems much more gracious, though, no doubt, equally taxing, than my own empty moments that gravitated back from memories as i read this piece....it absolutely amazes me how our experiences, the experience of living as a human, in this nervous system or what ever that it is that produces our emotions and perceptions....how we can have a different journey there, but the essence can still be assimilated and understood....great piece, thank you for sharing.

[Kelley]

I'm sure lots can relate to this.
Great write.
Thanks for sharing.

Kelley

[Beth Wilcox]

I love this. I can relate very well.