Wondering

A Poem about a boy wondering looking for someone

Standing around hiding what I feel from you
Hiding away what I want to say 
Swallowing my feelings down me and faking a smile for  you
Forcing the tears back through my eyes and heart
Breaking slowly trying to not show it
Falling too hard too fast so quick
Hurting on the inside so painfully 
Giving you my heart and getting it back broken and ripped
Running away from my problems and trying to not show them
Loving a person that can never love me back
Smiling through the hurt just to see you happy
Lying to you pushing my emotions away 
Locking away my emotions, hurt and heart from you
Turning the other way when you come
Ignoring the happiness and love that I once fell
Breaking too fast wondering when this ride will end
Feeling like nothing all over again 
Wondering am I worth it?