A Stronger Princess

It has happened to me twice. I have been the harlot twice. The first time was with a guy named Alex. Alex was charming, sweet, handsome, and sensitive. I suppose I would call him Prince Charming. Charming had me wrapped around his little finger. He had those deep, ocean eyes. I was captivated by him. He held my heart in the palm of his hands. He knew how to sweet talk me. He knew all the right things to say. His voice was like honey. His eyes were like silk. I wanted nothing more than to fall in love with him. I wanted to be his only girl. Eventually, I met up with Charming's wife. She loved him. She possibly loved him more than I did. I wasn't sure that was possible. Then again, I wasn't sure he had someone else in his life. However, I have been wrong before. I stepped back like the good little girl I am. I knew I didn't have a true place in his heart. I died inside. I couldn't believe that somebody would lie to me like that. I couldn't believe that somebody would make me fall in love with them. Maybe that is wall they call it falling in love. You just fall and you have to hope that person will catch you, that is when you know it is true love. If they catch you when you fall, that is the deal breaker. Charming didn't catch me. He tore my heart into pieces. I walked away from him, pretending to be unscathed.

 I knew that Charming had feelings for me. I knew that he cared for me. I could see it in his eyes, his touch, his kisses, and the way he held me. He was gentle with me. He held me like I was made of glass. He kissed me like he would never see me again. He looked at me as if I were his saving grace. I know he wanted more for me. I know he loved me as I loved him. But, he also loved her. He developed a connection with her, and he was unwilling to let that go for me. Charming deserved true love, as did I. So, I let him go. I wasn't going to deprive him from his true love.

Eventually, I found love again. His name was Davy. He was tall, black, and totally gorgeous. He said all the right things. He was like a whole new adventure for me. He showed me the world. He taught me things that I had only dreamt of. He made me feel loved. I felt special when I was with him. My smile was brilliant. My heart radiated undying love. I was in a different world than everybody else. He changed me life. He was like Alladin in a weird way. He showed the locked up princess, me, a different aspect to life. He was the street rat, the one who knew how to survive without anyone else.

Alladin could never stay in one spot. While we dated, I followed him around the country. I flew to Seattle to see him. I drove across the state to be with him for two nights. I would do anything to see him for one moment.

Soon enough, Alladin decided that he no longer needed a silly princess like myself. He stopped calling me. He didn't answer my phone calls or my text messages. He had forgotten about me. It was easy to forget me; I was half way across the globe. I waited for him. I waited a month before I decided to move on.

I had finally decided that Alladin wanted nothing to do with me. Recently, one of my friends said they had heard from him. Alladin had not been such a street rat after all. He had a girlfriend. He had somebody at home that loved him. He loved somebody. He was taken. I was just his side job. I was just his time killer. He had no intention on loving me. How could someone already in love, love me?

I know Alladin cared for me. I could see it in his eyes. I could feel it in his kisses. He said things to me that could not possibly be fabricated. He cared for me, but he loved her; whoever she was.

Alladin and Charming broke me. They broke me into tiny little pieces. I was just a sheltered princess who had no idea what true love was. I still don't believe I know what true love is. However, Alladin and Charming taught me a lesson. They taught me to trust no one. They taught me to love carefully. They taught me not to rush into anything. Alladin and Charming changed my life. The next time I am in a relationship, I will look at everything on a whole different level. I will think before I leap into love.

When I am stronger, I will thank Alladin and Charming for hurting me. In the end, maybe they saved me.

Author's Note

This was a quick piece to get my feelings of my chest.