The Mask

I knew I should of let the song fade, but that look in his eye

Made me feel like ,for him, its worth another try......

The strain of finding "HAPPY" out of hopeless was too much  to bear

I tried to rekindle that flame that once burned, tried to get back what wasnt there....

The "NEW US" was a joint effort between us last time I checked

But how was it goin to breathe with the noose of the past tied around its neck....

I can no longer wear this mask of contempt and hide behind it any longer

Your see-through promises has drained my faith,made me weaker not stronger

I have  armor around heart made from scar tissue and with all my expertise

He burns through all my defenses,with a simple question,that brings me to my knees

"Why can't you and Mommy be together?,I want yall to be.."is what my son asks...

Before I answer and  he sees the water in my eyes I reach for that mask

My answer is untrue but through the mask it sounds truthful and sincere

And until he can really understand the situation ,im going to keep that mask close and  near.

Everyone wears a mask from time to time , I know its not just me

But when I take the mask off in the mirror ,sometimes I dont recongnize the person I see...................

Its because im being  being phony and not truthful to myself

Its damaging my "self esteem" and its dangerous for my health....

I cant do it any longer !,,Ive   tried my hardest  is all I can say

So I leave this mask for you to wear,and im  finally walking away ..

We was trying to find  the love we lost....long ago

It was lost for a reason,and now we know...