Hard TO Believe

Lord I have wandered and meandered off my path

The  straight path you was leading  me on

My lamp as gone dim, I haven't any oil nor a match

To light my way you once laid for me once ago

I feel weighted down by my burdens

Deep in the murky mud of my sins,I'm sinking below

Dirty from thoughts and filthy from sinful desires in my mind

Straving to find the whole to fill the void in my soul

I war within , with this battle is what  I find

I fall victim to this world of desirable pleasures

Again and again , day in and day out

But my heart is pure and thats what you measure

I see a set of headlights coming my way

Im still , wide eyed and paralized 

Fear seaps through my veins , im petrofied , still I stay

Maybe its faith to breathe hope back into my battered soul

Or they're untamed  emotions mixed with conflicted thoughts

I'm yearning for a spritual collision

It'll put more coal in the fire that burns within my desires

So I pray , never waiver and stand firm on my decisions

Then what I was looking at hits me

When I woke up,I was sore and felt beaten

And I'm looking at this poem your reading

Then I realize this poem is not for me ,its for you ,because you see

The one in front of the headlights was you not me