Pain of Nothingness

me vs self

Everything is a blank white wall,

 Nothingness crawls up into me,

 A hint of emptiness and dull,

Where is the fluttering of glee?

And the world out there is cruel,

 I want to be gone, forever,

So shatter me with thorns, farewell.

I am wrapped up with cold weather--

And breaking through this Waterloo,

But when a river of tears fall,

Nightmares come up out of the blue,

 It eats my soul, please kill me now!

To cut off the pain at somehow,

The same feeling I cannot bear,

 Leading me to a world of nowhere,

Please give me hope like the sun shines--

An open door of new beginnings,

 A new page of life to rewrite,

That makes me want to catch the kite,

 To hold onto something that’s bright.

Author's Note

Hi, this is an ugly poem, i am so sorry but thank you for reading it!

Reviews

[barleygirl]

What I don't like are dreary poems that feel like a dump of ugliness . . . THIS poem is NOT that. Even tho your message is dreary, your writing is artful & full of vivid examples to show instead of tell. Many depressed writers TELL how bad he/she feels (depression can be very self-absorbed). But your poem paints portraits to SHOW so many details that make up this plague we call depression. Strong writing! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Harriet.Lising]

Wehhh... this is far from ugly Jaiiii. I felt the emotions. Captivating😮💜

[Jairah P.]

hala thank u brodie

[Lyn Anderson]

It's not ugly. But it is powerful, and aptly describes the depths of despair into which we sometimes fall. I hope the writing of it was cathartic. I do not have an answer, only to say anyone who feels this way IS worthy, and, yes, this too shall pass. Little comfort, however true.

[Jairah P.]

aww, thank you so much :(

[The Daisy]

Right, it is sad and painful; but, creativity is there. Keep it up, Jairah!

[Chris Shaw]

It is far from ugly. The subject may be sad, but I see no ugliness here. I do see some really nice poetic expression. i hope you continue to post your poetry.

Chris

[Jairah P.]

thank you so much !