Inner Demons

I was at a point in life where self harm was my escape. When I finally pulled myself out of my self harming I wrote this about my feelings. Please leave all feed back :)

Inner Demons

Pounding from inside

I feel your desire

making my knees feeble

and my soul hollow

 

you never leave me

rarely give me a break

the pulsing of your figure

mimics my every move

 

time and time again I try to leave you

behind in the void

but every day you appear

making me weak

 

no one can see you

or feel you the way I do

you are unique to me

and I fear you so

 

I wish to have you dissipate

into thin air

but thicker and thicker you become

ripping my sanity from the inside

 

my mind escapes to this ever so familiar nirvana

making my body numb

this simple act of bliss

has taken control of my subconscious

 

my mind is blank

no longer aware of who or what I am

slowly breaking inside

losing all of who I was

 

this struggle is one fought alone

my spirit burning dim

the light vanishing from my eyes

as his grasp takes hold

 

no longer able to distinguish between pain or pleasure

his delirious ways rule my life

or what is left of my corpse

rotting from the inside.

Reviews

[Leran Vakem]

I really like this, it spoke to me personally as I think it should to anybody who reads it. I can feel the despair in the words.
Well done

L.V.