Since i was 6 years old...

I had this desire, to touch a pleasure that pops out

Then i had to relase it out. 

For me the best time to spend with my man is:

first make him focus oriented

second health 

third making adoration in his ways, 

i usually have a desire to give in rather than taking from him

The only desire which i want him to is make me your ship sometimes horse

use my lips to kiss as many times wherever i want

hands hold him wrap him around 

make his legs hug mine 

the perfect kiss would be the wedding kiss he offiers after i say I do, I am called his bride

infront of everyone, a slight touch of his lips over mine, and on my forehead

the perfect night with him is when all relatives and family send us together to have fun in night in our bed room

the perfect play of pleasure is with little fight as he teases, takes off and holds me from back, with anger he tries to hurt me 

"you took these many years to come to my bed room, why didnt you come my apartmen when i missed you on my bed in my. do you need all these rituals to make our first night a best one?

he pulls my hand then i say stop it, he wont listen hold my stomach, kisses on shoulders, shall i put laddu in your mouth why did you called me laddu, then shall i sprinkle milk on your head why did you say spilled milk jug jar.... 

he pushes me on bed come on open your saree, then i roll to corner of bed to be far from him, as he gets closer taking his clothes off, he just puts saliva in my mouth and says drink it, because you didnt allow me kiss you for the first time, then spitted on his face, this my first kiss with saliva to you, you stupid, falls on my lap, sing a song for me,, where is your guitar, piano, ... its fine just roll drums on me,,,, i will dance on your back if you lie down, 

then he opens his dairy, reads out his fav poem for me, one after the another, i feel sleepy, hey already you are sleeping? i will get coffee wait, ok i want it with sugar, or else i can get you sit here.... 

its fine we sleep hugging her slowly and taking her on his body, kissing, i missed alot dont know how much i waited for all these days to see you on my bed can you make not be away any night, just be together and this is the wish i ask you and give it as my gift now. Definitely, i  never be away from you .... i love you alot............

Jessy Jacob