More than anything on this planet

 In the winter of my life

He gives me eternal sunshine

Spotless of the mind

I love him like a clueless child

When he asked for my kiss

It gets me nowhere to say no

I just cant tell him to go

When he texts I miss you so

I block him he leaves me voice mails

I try not to answer

I see his message on the whats app

He is the designer of this crazy map

I dont know what I do

I love him more than anything on this planet

Its the saddest

Our love is just a game of madness

I was always an unusual girl

Lost in her depressed world

When life becomes a bummer

He is my only favorite summer

He is thankful I am in his life

He wants me always in his life

I am in love with him and he is in love with me too

He hates his wife's abuse

Yet he can't leave

Its complicated

We are ill fated

Yet why do we keep holding on

Even in death love is still strong

There is some connection from stupid cupid

He says we are the 8th and 9th deadly sin

He asks me whats better an fwb or an affair

You must think I am really dumb here

But even when I am not with him there is an endless river of tears

Maybe a little more love can make it right

Maybe a little more love will make him mine

He says he quit smoking and now he hates trump too

Maybe 5 more years his love will be true

Or I will just still be this fool

In this endless love song I am the fool for you

I love him and he says I love you

He came to give me a birthday gift

2 big bouquets of flower

the red rose

the red daisy

With a little plushy dog

With some twentys stuck in the card

He wrote me a short message from his heart

He says this I will always have

along with his passion and desire

he hurts too because this is the way it must be

yet he doesnt want me to leave

maybe i was born to be the other woman

There is beauty in belonging to no one

I only belong to him

I lose all my knowledge when I am in his presence

I get a sniff of his essence

Underneath it all there is this light so small

He came and helped me bury my white dog

He dug and dug and when he took a break

We went up to my bed and love had to be made

It was another strange day

I needed to escape in the arms of his embrace

He held me tight as we kissed with fury hungry with life

We talked and laughed as his drops of sweat dripped down as I laid in his arms

I got on top its just the way we like both naked in the sun's warmth

We went for a ride

I just needed to feel him inside

It was wrong and yet so right

He is back again in my bed at my side

but I know I will have to give him away again

Even love doesn't make anyone stay in the end

Just got to take what I can get and be done with it

stuck in this carousel madness

saying no only leaves me with sadness

telling him to go and the sky is a darker blackness

What can i do? what is my flaw?

I love him but I broke His law

Its not what I choose but its a love that goes beyond intelligence

A love for him more than anything on this planet