His Kiss

The saddest day fell

I am still adjusting to the aftermath of that spell

I look to the porch room its empty as well

The nightmare is real

I wish to go where he is

Yet the only thing that keeps me on earth is the memory of his kiss

 in the most beautiful way in sunlight and grace

In the shelter of his embrace I felt so safe on the saddest day

He just text me telling me he is so busy he is tired

Me too I want to lay down with him give in to desire

I was reading Confessions on the 7:45 a lot of bad guys doing things to their wives

A lot of stories about complicated lives

I say I am better because love guides

Yet I honestly dont know what I do

I dont know how to live without you

Once I was stronger

A dreamer

Believing in the magic

Now no longer

Since many things have gone tragic

He cant let me go

He always wants me in his life

Its useless to say no

I never get anywhere

I am still not there when I make him go

Now that I have lost my Kiddo I need him more than ever

I feel so alive when we are together

Yet its doomed I feel so confused

I see us on that saddest day

Him and me on MLK

We were digging the earth

Maybe it connected to us wanting to fight away the hurt

It was the saddest day

Yet beautiful things happened also in a way

He said I am getting of early I am coming to be with you

He brought me flowers and money too

All I need is him, his touch, his kiss

Nothing can separate me from God

Nothing can separate me from his love

We are blinded fools

I lie to the new guy because I am thinking of him

His touch and his kiss

He has me wrapped around his fingertips

I love falling in to his arms

He traps me with words and sparkling eyes

The web of his lies

and in the aftermath he keeps me feeling alive

Invisible to others he sees me and so this is a need that hungers

The endless wonder

The storm's powerful thunder

i cant ignore

The lightening is more

I pray God will forgive and keep us in His door

I wish to go where he is

I have lost true earthly bliss

Yet in the danger of his loving  amiss

In the sunshine in his embrace there is a peaceful grace in his kiss