Tell Me the Answer DadA Poem by butterflyimaginary conversation with my dadI woke up trying to catch the ten o' clock mass Ending being late tried to catch eleven Then Uber raised the price to feed the pockets of the greedy class Tried to go to the Ube Fest After I live streamed church I felt my divine Father gather up the pieces of my hurt Replacing it with new answers for me to ponder As my mind drifts and wonder I heard the bell on my text I went out to lunch with my best Found walking with Laurie to be my favorite heaven Jo and Laurie walking around the water waiting for our table at El Torito Under green trees in San Leandro We talked about the new and old Under the gold California sun we call home its good to be out again a little woman and little man Now I sit here writing listening to Jack Johnson on the couch pb m & ms fill my hand from my melody bowl wondering where did the good people go? I am always hearing this certain truth There is no one else to rely on only the moonlight can get us through For the moonlight is the messenger of love I hear the true champion of justice and the righter of wrongs for all evil Scam after scam and still When I return there is no hesitation to be fulfilled With each broken heart He reached the deepest part I have known it from the start Yet I was distracted because sometimes I was lost in the dark But sometimes we must see the end Even though we stand at the edge The fog blinds me and I find myself falling from the ledge He catches me every time As I walk in the endless moonlight I feel the messenger of love shining through He is the purest champion of love and justice Through a cartoon I feel the messenger of love with the moon one mind and heart feels so far apart I wonder what my daddy would say knowing who my lover was this week would you scold me would you hold me didnt you see i was so lonely i tried to be strong i was just a human girl all along its the reason why God knows all we only see what we can see why He put himself on the cross we are only human we cant see the true cost we cant see ourselves when we get lost in his arms HE catches my fall when the miami building collapsed HE saves them all i block and unblock so now the dude dont take the girl serious this is humanity so dont be judging me i know i am flawed i am sorry for it all i loved him and his dark side i see like a child i run and untamed so wild maybe this is why i am single i am a unicorn but in a human body i am an angel earth bound because i was captured by a lovers spell oh daddy please say a prayer for me I dont want to burn in hell they tell me to let go i know my heart and mind shouldnt be so far apart when you left life got so hard i tried my best i failed the test he tells me my a*s is amazing when everyone else laughs call me so fat how do you say goodbye completely to someone like that oh tell me the answer dad one day i will let you go the inner child good girl will heal realize I am worthy of love someway this dream will be real for a long time i never felt enough this is why i am here we are broken baby its clear his kisses are like sugar water it feels so good even if it burns us in the fire oh sweet lover what are you addicted to i am your sanity its a lot to put on me he wants his cake and eats it too i forgive the weak humanity that controls thee yet i am no cake you are my love and my heartache my passion and my pain here i learn about loving without much in return yet he makes me happy when i am with him i feel our souls ignite how do i turn away wrong or right oh Lord lead the way tonight after our love making was done he said thanks for receiving me add that line in your poetry thanks for meeting me thanks for not leaving me i tell him why dont you just forget me he says he will never this tie is hard to sever when i try the missing is all i remember i keep him around he makes me forget i am lonely he calls my fat a*s amazing there is no finances exchanged sometimes i think its better that way no agreements or lawsuits no broken vows no nothing yet what of the other side it must be something mr right does he wait for me somewhere out there have i settled to be dumb for life I just dont know what to do how do you let go of the fun in my place with no true escape sure he goes back to his wife i dont want him to leave her for me no matter what happens its a sin anyways they tell me to try harder to stay away i agree and yet i know deep inside this feeling cant go away maybe he is my sanity too i am addicted too 2 fools in love i just pray to Mother Mary and JC above Send me some good luck I lost you at 29 Me and my best friend had a fight Found the man of her dreams Then left me with a quickness Thought I was feeling the jealousness But I was feeling the hurt from the slash she left in my arm Then she tried to lure me with her clairvoyant charm She should have known that my father would come to shield me from harm Now she is the name I never say Voldemort came through my own door Yet I got rid of her meanness with a strength I never felt before Since my fathers death life became bleak and sad I thought i found my man Yet he left me like a plastic bag My work mates were nice Yet the drama became stronger I had to escape before I got pulled under It is hard to get money every one pays me minimum wage though i have so much experience yet here I am a medical assistant but i cant complain i still have my own money in the bank but daddy i fell in love with a married man i grew up to be a mistress dad he is the best sex I ever had sometimes i think its love I try to stay away but he always begs me back they say its my fault because i let him why must i say good bye if he keeps coming why must i be ashamed if we are what we like all that stuff in his life i didnt break yet here we are in the bed we made i am not proud i try other guys i cant lie he is still the best sex in my life oh i must tell you Dad I cant tell mom She probably already knows But I have no where else to go I wish I could still hear your voice even if its to hear you yell and scream i lost my dogs Austin, Daizy and KIDDO I hope you are with them having fun in the rainbow sun life can be so lonely when you are only one every one asks me if i am alright i tell them i am fine how do you tell the truth so i put it on the page as if we are talking face to face i am 41 but my soul is fourteen i still miss my daddy i dont mean to be a bad sheep thats what they call me jokingly i know i am fucked up but i am a human only searching for love i wish i could be a nun but i couldn't keep the vow i like the way he touches me now i didnt want to break i dont want to lie i dont want to do bad things all the time since you left i have been sad when he holds me i just feel a bit more glad we are broken but he was never stolen maybe its all pretense nothing makes sense life is so hard i wish you were here to tell me the answer dad send me a sign write it in the sand everything will be alright hello beautiful those were your last words every time i see them on those cute bags i have a feeling you are near i am still your daughter here. i wrote this last one with tears in my eyes i still miss you after all this time sorry i was such a brat i didnt even give a crap i was crazy and lazy i have no excuse i just really miss you i was too broken to stay on guard i am tired inside my heart i walk all apart maybe its why the right guy cant get in i am in a tunnel with BEN IS he my imaginary friend missing me again and again oh daddy just make the nightmares end i dont know the question what did you always say you will miss me when i am gone i would say but your not going anywhere oh daddy for you I say a prayer Thanks for hearing me I feel better Send me a sign I will find mr. right everything will be fine put it in my hand tell me the answer dad. are you looking over my shoulder the way you used to irritating me i would scream at you to move as i typed on the computer screen checking i wasnt writing about you sorry for the one time i did do it was embellishment it wasnt true always know i still love you no there is nothing I wouldnt give just to have you near nothing i wouldnt do so i know you hear i write this with a tear i miss my daddy dear.
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Added on July 12, 2021 Last Updated on July 12, 2021 |