For Myself

Sam Smith gets it

Why can't i find him

i meet the guys who can scratch the itch

I met another Ben

I just dont see myself with these men

They bring me flowers

the bring me mcds

I just wasnt attracted to his denim shorts in our first hours

He calls me baby so fast

i told him i wanted to go slow

he says i can if you want thats how it goes

its if i want but i already said

i get irritation in my head

i like it that we love each other and leave

something after my divorce truly broke me

i like being single

getting me married takes a miracle

i want a good guy who can be bad

i want a bad guy who can be good

its not sad

to my heart i must be true

i have the wonderlust

i love doing whatever I want

i am a butterfly

i can stay by your side

i can take to the sky

i am untamed

so yes i rejected that good guy

there was no sparks

it bored my ADD heart

i may not be so smart

but i need to see the stars

one day love wont be so far

till then i will keep dancing till I fall in love with someone else

till then i can still work on therapy and forgiveness for myself