sad love destiny

the guy from match asked me out

we made plans to meet at Daughters Thai

I rechecked the app for his profile but its deleted so now I dont remember what he is about

no memory of his smile but the one i fucked last night i can see with closed eyes

is my heart so dark it just follows the fluttering wings of butterflies

even if its made of mirages and lies?

should we still meet

the texting seems sweet

yet the paranoia of a single girl clicks in

what will be will be

in this sad love destiny

he wants to stay with me ideally

but he is trapped by debts and not acting his best

he tells me his head aches because he did uber till one then resumed at seven

not realizing that he holds heaven

yet he chooses to run away

while i try to fill the empty space

yet all i can think of is the paradise in this forbidden embrace.