Desperate butterfly

I couldn't do what they advise me to do

Forever lost with you

I heard his voice and the sadness

Wondering if I am ok looking for answers in the madness

the lies crumbled to reveal the truth

deep down I am always in love with you

However no matter how it never fades

I dont hear from him telling me he will stay

My heart breaks

We had a talk

He says I always disappear

I wanted to ask him if he is ever here

still lying with her

still lying to me

why bother

but I cant forget the memories of our love

the movie plays on repeat in my mind

I don't want to leave you behind

A spot side by side is hard to find

This what I need

to hear him learn the love language that I speak

It was good of me to block

To stay still in my cocoon

So i know what I must do

I cant chase you

I wont play the fool

I don't be a lady tearing down another lady to have you

we just cant make the fairy tale  come true

We talk and talk go in circles

same carousel

and oh baby its heaven and hell

to be with and without you

now i get the song

but its so hard because no matter how i try i just don't belong

i told you i feel dumb

he tells me i am not

i just need to hear you say and act like i am the one you love

but it seems he is ok to lose

since you remain in that fucked up situation

whats the point of saying hi

and starting another conversation

i want to text you i miss you so much inside

its just the feelings of this desperate butterfly

i do not like feeling this inside

i was ok in my cocoon

no matter how dead inside i feel

at least i know what is real

i mix my tears with the gray rainy sky

release the rage of this desperate butterfly...

Reviews

[Arundass TP]

oh baby its heaven and hell
to be with and without you

The reality you expressed in these lines. Excellent writing. Loved it