blew up the dream

He tells me he isn't leaving me he will always be in the bay

Its not exactly a promise to stay

Praying for pain to fade

I wish our love could be for always

He called me to ask if I am ok

Only to stab then attempt to soothe me

in his new stockton life

beside his still fucked up situation and wife

same knife

coming for another cake slice

this is not love

this is toxic seed

he tells me he will still visit from stock ton to oakland when he ubers

if thats really the silver

i dont even want him to now

I guess this is what I mean to him no doubt

foolish dreams of love are not enough

I watch the dream explode

free from the known empty hope

why is your heart so ice cold

i loved the man he showed to me

but in the end though I am the best, and he stopped smoking

he wont stop failing the test

he says sorry i got you so upset

he misses me but drives back to share his twisted bed

not me

from the matrix i am free

i miss the man he could be

but now I see

he is just a toxic seed

so i blew up the dream