this dumb fantasy

He said I miss you but you never came to my drive way with flowers

Never bought me hello kitty in my dark hours

Can only make the secret visit

My eyes hurt from the crying

Is there a healing in dying

The blue from you

takes me there

I have a choice

Luckily in this moment I hear God and his angelic voice

From the Uber driver that hears a teary phone call

Why are you leaving at all?

Why couldn't you love me

Catch me when I fall

That stranger sent the message God is with me at the end of it all

speedily we made the earth just for the rich

so many want to jump of the bridge

i want to join them too

oh why couldn't you love me like i could have loved you

there is so much pain in me

from this dumb fantasy