Only in the memory

recorder of the muses sometimes it is only poetic mumbo jumbo...haha...

I really miss you baby

The real part of a fantasy is what you are to me

Now we will live on only in the memory

Its hard to be legendary

I understand

I dont judge you man

I just want to love you while I can

So there you are stuck in Stockton

Working so hard

the only thing you can do is text me

I want to take an extra hour for lunch so I can consume you

its wrong its not good

its not a valentine leading to I do

but if they ask me if its love I would tell Him the truth

i really miss you baby

communicating or not drives me crazy

so let us be consumed by the insanity

I guess its what is deserved after a selfish fantasy

It hurts my heart

knowing this destiny will keep us apart

How can I make you leave her

No one was trying to be a cheater

still he is a wicked deceiver

still in love i am a believer

when times are tough

some nice angel comes and gives us love

we wish we could keep forever

I know the truth we can't be together

while you are still married to another

for whatever reason

we were only given this season

my response was

but you wont

what can I say

rejection makes me bitterly behave

I instantly regret being mean to you

with or without you i can't live

he selfishly took all the energy i had to give

always curses every new date

he is truly a wicked soul mate

I think thats I am because I was ripping at the seam

all the fine little lines were unraveling from the dark dream

maybe you too suffer

knowing we both still insatiably hunger

all of this is a wonder

I dont know the meaning

like i dont know how to find the northern lights for seeing

All I can say is our love remains only in the memory

where i will always be missing you baby...