-forgive myself-

i want to forgive myself for meeting you..

 

i want to forgive myself

for looking into your eyes

and giving my body to you...

 

i want to forgive myself

for letting myself love you;

sacrificing what i needed

and putting myself

on the back burner for you...

 

even though i loved you

to the depths of me,

and still deep down may love you;

you're not here anymore

 

i have a life to live,

i must forgive myself.

 

i need to forgive myself

for thinking i was wrong

for walking away

 from something that was falling apart

 

i need to forgive myself

because i didn't have all the answers

to hold us together

 

i need to forgive myself

for needing you..

 

when i needed you,

...like a phone off the hook

you were always busy..

 

i have to forgive myself

for wanting to be loved

i am but a human who makes mistakes

 

i need to, i have to, i want to i must....

.....forgive myself

 

Reviews

[TRISHA]

I am printing this out.......trying to see how to have it retyped, framed and matted. Sent it to my friends and enemies...lmao. You touched the very core of what I have been living for the last year. I did not realize it was even within me UNTIL you revealed it. I feel saddened to know that it is there but I am overjoyed that it has been brought to the light so that I can deal with it. Like I said in my first review...how do you do what you do. You make whatever you write about (Love, Life, Childhood, Anger, etc...) seem so simple, so clear, so understandable. Your words will appeal to the masses because you write in a way that all can relate to. Your words give me chills because I feel that you are in my head, in my soul and in my heart. It is a bit scary but fascinating. Again,.....how do you do what you do

[crstna]

You don't need to forgive yourself because you haven't made any mistakes. You need to accept yourself and learn from your past. You are a good person for dedicating so much time and love to one person, regardless if it was reciprocated or not.