I'm Me

For all of those who have gotten mad at me for being too serious, too sad, too melancholy, too empathetic...read this

I’m me

Not you

Or you

Or you

I’m a husband

And a father

And a friend

And an enemy

A son

A brother

A cousin

An uncle

But so are others

I worry

About everything

I care

About everyone

I cry

More than I’d like to admit

I hurt

From the silliest of things

I’m serious

Way more than I should be

I try

Harder than I probably should

I wear my heart on my sleeve

I don’t think before I speak

I walk on eggshells around people

I talk too much

Speak too loud

Listen too little

Trust too much

I’m scared

Of what my friends think

Would I believe them

If they told me

I second guess everything

And everyone

I find myself

Needing people more

More than they need me

I overreact

I panic

I’m easily confused

I say the wrong stuff

Do the wrong things

My priorities aren’t in order

My focus isn’t keen

My wits are not sharp

My senses are dulled

But in the end

I’m me

And I cannot change

I’ve made mistakes

More than I can count

Broken hearts

Shattered dreams

Lost friends

Lost loves

Gained more

Lost them again

I’ve grown

More out than up

I’m too much “feelings”

And not enough “man up”

I don’t hunt

I don’t fish

Couldn’t kill a deer

Or a spider

But I am true to me

And true to my family

And to my friends

But sometimes the me in me

Gets in the way

I’m in my own head way too much

And I doubt

My abilities

My faith

Others faith in me

I am not strong

Not all the time

But I’ll be strong for you

You need my shoulder?

I come unwaveringly

Heart to heart talk?

We can talk all night

Stuck somewhere?

I’m on my way

Fix your house?

I’ll bring my tools

Fix your car?

Call the garage!

So I’ll offend you

And hurt your feelings

And not even realize

And then apologize

For months and months

And you’ll get mad

Because I’m serious

When you need me funny

And I’ll pick you up

And dust you off

When you’re already

Standing and clean

I’m me

And nobody else

I say what I feel

And mean what I say

And if you’re reading this

And something stands out

Calls to you

And you think for a moment

It’s directed at you

You are probably right

But understand

Please can you try

I say what I say

And do what I do

Because I’m me

Reviews

[Another Mayfly]

You have a talent for being able to say the things we all feel, everything you described is so utterly human and thats why i enjoy your writing.

[Jennifer Cox]

I liked that very much. That's all u should be is you and not what people want you to be. Thank you for being you and always being there to listen and talk. It means a lot to me.