Ode to a Friend

People come and people go, but there are some you hope that never leave. This is for two such individuals.

I’m scared

I’m terrified

I’ve read this book before

I know how this story ends

I’ve been there several times

The end result is the same

And I am feeling so helpless

My confidence is nil

Friendships come and go

But they say that

True friends never waiver

And there have been a few

And they’ve all come and gone

The ushers in my wedding

Are all but a memory

They all found a better life

And left me far behind

But now I found you two

You’ve seen me at my worst

Picked me up when I had fallen

Helped me through some bitter times

Regrets I have are many

Have I been a good friend back

I’ve said some stupid things

Things I can’t take back

If only I had stopped to think

And not made you so mad

But now you’re going ‘cross the country

And seeing a whole new world

And you’ll meet many new faces

As I sit and ponder

My confidence beaten and destroyed

For I’ve lost too many in the past

You know so much of me

And all that I’ve been through

But every day I feel you slipping

And my mind tells me often

So we will talk and mingle

About the day to day

And in my broken mind

Playing off past histories

The every day will succumb

To every passing week

And lives will take us separate ways

And I will be here wondering

How you are down there

As I search once again

To find myself relief

My inner turmoil has kicked in

And my walls have been put up

And I’ve found myself

In this subconscious world

Distanced from the people

Who’ve brought me to the light

And helped me be a better friend

Than I ever thought I might

So please if you’re reading this

And I really hope you do

Tell me that I’m being crazy

And my head is running wild

That our friendship will never change

It will never stray

That we will keep in touch

And the miles will never change that

“Pete, you’re talking silly

You’re mind’s in overdrive”

I’ve been feeling lost

And very insecure

The friends I thought I’d never lose

It feels they’re leaving me today

You know who you are

I need’nt say your name

But know my friendship

It is for real

And it will never stray

And I know I have been distant

And a little off my game

I’m worried that I’ll lose you

I know that sounds so lame

I love you like a brother

And like a sister too

But I don’t know where to go from here

I know not what to do

Tell me that I’m crazy

That it’s just my foolish pride

I miss the hugs you’d give me

Or listening to your guitar

And one more thing I need to say

I’m getting my money’s worth

I never slept through Boondock

Or Inglorious to boot

But I’ll miss those Sundays

Watching from your couch

So if you read this

Please do not be mad

It’s merely how I’m feeling

I know it is quite sad

I’m crying as I write this

I hope it moves you too

Please do not forget me

Nor will I to you

I’ve never had better friends

Than either one of you

That will be all for now

I cannot see my keys

My tissue box is empty

And I’m shaking to the core

And as you take this journey

You’ll take a piece of me

I wish you both the very best

And years and years of glee

But if you see me weary

And overthinking everything

My silence is my weakness

My heart is so, so heavy

My eyes are filled with tears

I hope you won’t forget me

As I know I won’t to you

Tell me it’ll be ok

That you’ll always be around

You’ll be on the other end

Of this ol’ cell phone

I’m just a little nervous

Definitely a bit scared

I’ve never had a friend like you

You I don’t want to lose