Relativity of Indulgence

Why do i risk so much?
For something warm to touch?
Is it company's delight?
Or truly; a awkward morning weights greater than a lonely night?

A witness for my slouching facade
A culpable collective for the flawed
"In the darkest hours we search for idle bliss"
An excuse from my glutenous hubris

Why does she give her all?
She breaks bones to break my fall
Is it all apart of this late night masquerade?
Courtesy to what my hyperbolic stigma has made

Elaborating my confabulating list
We're partners only when the pain often exist
A swell in my moral intent unroots the time that we spent
Just an audience for my self satisfying detriment