Two faced

A Poem by Katelyn

My fake friends, why do you exist?
Talking behind my back is a must
Black lies, white lies, ugh, just disgust
Writing this makes my eyes burn
Memories of you is now a concern

Using me to defend your mistakes...
Made me felt like a piece of crap
I'm now weak as a paper scrap
The trust I had, friends changed
I can't trust anyone, hmm, is this strange?

How come everyone adores you?
It's 3:33am, and tears are dripping down
May I get rid of this long frown?
There's a favor I want to ask
Just take off that nasty mask

The desire of perfection comes from you!
Why must my friends criticize me?
The 2 sided face of yours, I yearn others to see
Just by saying it's a joke
Doesn't stop me from feeling broke

Do you know what it was like
When the moment I realized all my "best friends"
Are just taking advantage of me at the end?
Take off those glasses, and look at me!
The tears I cried could've fill up the sea

What to sense the pain you caused?
I can no longer truly smile
With sadness placed in a pile
The world that I once thought was worth living
Is now worth killing...

People reading might assume this is fake
But I'm telling you, I'm writing for help
Don't want to hear another yelp
No, I haven't gone mad, I'm just sad
Why is life going so bad?

I sit alone and wonder
Will anyone ever notice if I die?
I want to say goodbye
I want you to regret your words,
For soon, my voice won't be heard

Please! I'm not a robot
I have feelings as much as you
No one will ever understand the pain I've been through
Because I'm a terrific actress after all
The days left for me are so small

I hate you, but I hate who I am too
The sweet chirpy girl you see is not real
But what's the big deal?
The more I say "yes"
The more I love myself less