the truth

Ive never been like everyone else

the secrets buried inside me

put up this wall from them

I give them a rope

yet no body will climb

you scream and i take it in silence.

my lips are the stitches

to the words i want to say

the blood is the message

that im not alright.

i live in a lie,

i say im okay, when inside

im dying from these people

that burn inside my flesh

its a never ending war

to stay sane or give in .

they tell me to end this ,

they build me up

just to tear me down .

to a point where i cant handle it anymore

i want to be happy

yet it feels so hard

but don’t get this wrong

there is light

i am not alone.

yet that’s how i feel

He brings a smile

To my face ,

And gives me a reason to survive

There’s only two people

Him and god

They are the tape

That keeps me

From falling apart.

I want this feeling to go away

Yet its hard

I love him,

Yet I feel like I will never

Be good enough for him.

My friends turn there backs ,

So I am left alone.

This feeling never goes away

The darkness is taking over,

I cant handle this anymore

My smile is the mask I put on

To hide myself

Will I ever feel sane?

I want to speak the truth

Yet I am to afraid

Of the response.

I guess I am left alone.

On this world,

I give them a rope.

To get over my wall.

Yet no one will climb