Away

Away

Where is Mummy and Daddy going?

Back seat I should be there.

Broken spirit I cannot mend

No little black curls in the baby’s chair.

 

Silence now I can’t be heard

Baby boy has no words

I can’t stop crying I don’t belong

Dry his tears, I’m pierced with swords.

 

Sleep is alien now stay alert

 Little boy must learn to pray

Sadly awake now it’s a cert

Scared little boy won’t want the day

 

Leave me here now in the manger

Coming morning through the door

Not a boy now but a stranger

Sunlight not welcome anymore.

 

Go on Have another one, sure why not

Life is good it’s all in the past

Do you know my pain I’m thinking not

Strange world for the outcast

 

 

What happened last night and who is she

She has a strange look she’s not what I see

This one’s stunning not like she

A few more drinks and I won’t be me

 

I am great now she won’t see real

Beautiful hips will I steal

Tomorrow now and I meet me once more

Darkness now, again on the floor

 

Monday is tired too much to bear

Where to now without a crutch

I have to change but do not dare

You tell me it’s good but I think not much

 

A chair a clock and a tissue

This room is not for me

I fool you to hide my issue

Are you different let’s wait and see

 

A glimmer of hope you say for me

Say it again I did not hear

Break the wall to make it stop

Foolish woman make it clear

 

 

Distorted is this at 8.15

That’s the time it’s always being

A giant inside at two foot small

What lit the flame to face it all

 

A man at two you had no choice

Spirit awake how has that been?

Damn the god’s who gave you voice

Darwin says we are so keen

 

What is wrong can’t touch the heat

Read from your books and come inside

  Little boy is broken and beat

Look around and dare to hide

 

Give me the answers I’ve none to spare

Hope springs eternal so they say

If it hurts now I do not care

I am tired for another day

 

So how are you now it’s been a while?

Who do I tell of my missing soul

Gather your thoughts I am here

It’s only a job you’re playing a roll

 

 

What happened inside when they drove away

 Different now gone to clay

But you want it back for another chance

It could be good teach me to dance

 

Man doesn’t know how cruel you see

Lioness minds her young

Go forth now and multiply

But how forget why you have done

 

Curtain goes up and here we are

Trust in me I gave you life

Stay a while and see how far

 Who are you to give me strife

 

 Takes time I know but much to do

Spirit from the ashes make’s a plan

Why can’t I be normal just like you

Walk with me now I hope I can.

 

Growing old gives less time

Makes me wiser I will be fine

Place a bet what’s to lose

God or Buddha for me to choose

 

 

Afraid to live in case to die

Looming croc peers with an eye

Run the gauntlet or back on dry

Either way all must die

 

Feeling good is feeling bad

Only comfort I ever had

Into the zone of exist alone

Powerful is stuck and needs to groan

 

Always addicted to being amused

Gratification brings the blues

Expose old wounds to heal the tear

Takes a step back be aware

 

Search light is on in an empty room

Step forward take a look

There you go find it soon

Is there a reason more than book

Author's Note

About a man who was abandoned at two yrs old. He is in his forties now and with his therapist, he is trying to make since of his addictions, struggles and life itself.