Gone but not Forgotten

Even after all these years your loss still haunts me
I carry it with me all the time it is my reality
You never took a single breath or made a sound
When I heard I dropped to my knees and unto the earth I pound
Tears cascading from my eyes as I watch your mother
The anguish in her face so easy to see unfathomable pain so hard to recover
I am sad I will never be able to see you grow
There were so many things in life I wanted to show
I would have wanted to see if you would be a scholar or athletic
Sometimes I wonder if people look at me and think I'm pathetic
That I'm sad that I lost children that weren't actually born
But they would be the ones that have not had their hearts torn
So I will keep them in my heart and fantasize how our lives would have been
And pass on their love when their brothers and sisters lives begin