Not The Last

Not The Last

A Poem by ♪The Girl Next Door♪
"

A poem. Simple as that(I wish).

"

This may be the last poem I write to you.

I wrote this because I felt like it.

Not because I want drama

Not because I crave sympathy

But because I needed to get it off my heart.

 

The pain I feel when I think of you

standing next to some other girl

you say I'm your number f****n one

so why do i feel like this?

 

And I know, I know,

it's my own damn fault.

clingy me

stupid me

I brought it on myself

 

But I'm not one of those girls

I never was, every five seconds:

"Where are you? Are you talking to her?"

That's not me! But when I think of seeing you

Next to another girl, it hurts.

 

I'm too young. I'm too naive.

I'm so damn stupid.

I just want someone there.

But best friends turn into boyfriends

Boyfriends turn into "best friends"

I only want some one to be there.

 

Someone who's going to meet me in the rain

at 2:30 in the morning, listen to me, hug me,

but please don't tell me "everything's going to be ok"

Lies sting more the truths

 

Tears run down my face for no reason

I smile and laugh at nothing at all.

I do believe I'm going insane.

But that is nothing new.

 

My mind is morbid,

That's a fact.

I laugh at deaths.

Gruesome thoughts make me giggle.

I can't help it.

 

This is me. Somethings wrong with it though.

It's not that I'm crazy or disturbing

That I'm insecure and sensitive (on a good day)

but that I chase things that will always out run me.

I reach for things I may never hold.

 

And I'll tell you right now,

This is not that last.

© 2012 ♪The Girl Next Door♪


Author's Note

♪The Girl Next Door♪
I have no idea but I know exactly why.

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You vented, sure, but you did it in such a powerful way!
I don't think there's anyone out there, once in a while, who hasn't enjoyed chasing that all elusive someone. It's the thrill of the chase, the excitement of anticipation, etc. Sometimes you catch them...sometimes you don't. Sometimes the one's you catch make you question yourself as to why the hell you were chasing them in the first place!
A heavy heart carries with it way too much weight. You'll find that special 'someone' someday. And it will be when you least expect it, and when you're not even looking at all...

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thank you for your review, I appreciate it :)



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Love love love this. I really like the clarification in the first stanza. Very emotional and realistic piece. Great job.

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thanks so much :)
Wow...such powerful emotion, and I can completely relate. I hope with this poem you alleviated some of your stress and sadness. I know it helps me sometimes. As always, very well written. ^_^

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thank you so much! It really makes me happy when people enjoy my writing, especially other amazing w.. read more
Serenity Faith

8 Years Ago

LOL! You're very welcome, and you totally just made my heart smile, so Thank you ^_^
♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

:D Yay for smiling hearts!
You vented, sure, but you did it in such a powerful way!
I don't think there's anyone out there, once in a while, who hasn't enjoyed chasing that all elusive someone. It's the thrill of the chase, the excitement of anticipation, etc. Sometimes you catch them...sometimes you don't. Sometimes the one's you catch make you question yourself as to why the hell you were chasing them in the first place!
A heavy heart carries with it way too much weight. You'll find that special 'someone' someday. And it will be when you least expect it, and when you're not even looking at all...

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thank you for your review, I appreciate it :)
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I can completely relate hun. We all fall for the one person we really shouldn't at one point. Very well said, the emotions are blunt and bold. :) Enjoyed this a lot.

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thank you so much :)
Oh, my dear Kenzie. I'm so sorry you feel like this.
It's not your fault. You can't blame yourself for developing feelings; no one can. It's perfectly human to want to be loved, especially if you keep seeing people around you experiencing the same. Though I think it's important for you to understand that one rotten apple shouldn't spoil the whole basket - you shouldn't give up the search just because one guy acted like a d****e.
The best thing you can do now is to learn something from the experience, no matter how bad it may seem. Who knows, maybe the knowledge you receive now will help you find a guy in the future. :D
Anyways, I liked this poem a lot. Your emotions kinda develop throughout the whole thing, ultimately reaching that peak where you speak about insanity and other matters. And then they just kinda chill down. I like that contrast.
Keep it up!
P.S. I suppose I should start sharpening my dagger while you bring the goats.

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Haha! No Tom, the dagger and goats are not needed this time, for I fear it is my fault. Thank you fo.. read more
Tomislav Petricevic

8 Years Ago

Not a problem, bestie! :D
Fine expressionism indeed. One thing though, I'm just wondering why you start off with "This may be the last" then end with "this is not the last,' I don't quite understand that. Anyhoo, well done.

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Well originally, I was suppose to start with all the things that may be the last, and the last half .. read more
Tai Ryens

8 Years Ago

You are right, it did turn out good.
♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thanks again :)
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Pax
a bad break-up is really complicated right?
anyways, after writing this hope you feel better.

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thank for the review
Really good! :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thank you :)
loved this!

Posted 8 Years Ago


♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

Thanks!
I don't like reading things like this, but it was great! Good job.

Posted 8 Years Ago


David the writer

8 Years Ago

Sweetness
♪The Girl Next Door♪

8 Years Ago

:)
David the writer

8 Years Ago

:)

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My name's Makenzie and I'm extremely insane. If I were a super hero my super hero name would either be Captain Procrastination or Sarcastimaster. P.S. also by the way, I'm a confessed crazy cat lady. .. more..

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