Lonely Lost Son

speechless

The first image I see every morning.
Is your innocent smiling face
Seeing you are growing
Day after day
So all I can do
Is that I kiss you
And ask you
Son, how are you today?
But..
You make me feel like i want to die
because, however had I to try,
You  have never given a reply
Come on, tell me
Why are you doing that to me?
You have chosen to have peace
Away from the hateful earth
But you never told me,
What shall I do?
Your toys, your room, your clothes
All around me
To remind me of you
Although I never forget you
Why were I promised of you
Since I can never enjoy being with you?
Why did you come,
While you previously decided to go?
You were my life dream
Changed into worst nightmare
Now you are my life pain
With grief  you tie me with a strong chain
None of us letting the other alone..

Dad, daddy, papa, pappy,
Titles double my life's severe pain
What about you Mr. Fate?
Do you know how much you were mean?
Happy now, putting me in ever highest pain rate?
I wish you were a father,
And feel the same as I suffer
But since you would never,
Take me to him, please, don’t wait
At least
My heart then would stop to beat
My flooding tears would fade
That I am with him at last
able to kiss..even his feet

Author's Note

the son was dead as soon as born, everyday kisses, the how are you and such things are somthing imaginery, i said i was promised oh him meaning waiting his arrival for 9 months..

Reviews

[Sky]

Reading this hurts. I want to cry as I continue to read through the pain in this piece. You have written a vivid imagery, so heart piercing, that I can feel the agony. Well written.

[Emrick]

I can imagine how painful it is.but everything happens wit a reason.maybe he was to go so that another great kid will be born to you.n u never know maybe if he was left to live we would one day be a huge disappointment to you.you never know.
by the way is it just a poem or its REAL.

[Aditi Mahajan]

This is really emotinal. speechless :(

[Jeff]

I can feel this pain. I got tears in my eyes as I read this.

[GunMetal]

I'm filled with sorrow for your tragedy. This poem is filled with your emotion, but I'm sure you are nowhere near tapped out. My heart goes out to you and yours.

[Miss CB]

So emotional... Really captured everyday life so very well... Well done!!!

[Pax]

so sad and i really felt the longing of the father to his lost son. its must be a shattering news to find out after nine months of waiting it got to heaven first than to the living.

[Akhand Pratap Singh]

So touching, its sad and emotions just over flow my eyes were wet from reading it, yeah sometimes nature is cruel, but all we can do is move on and search for happiness in every little thing we do.. That's what life is.

[Sleeping Maiden]

Awwww. This really touched me.. So saddening.. and quite deep. You expressed your sorrow well. I'm sorry you had to experience this.

[†Tracey†]

I too know this sorrow.. I'm sorry you have experienced it also.. This spoke to my heart..and I thank you.