rebellious

I was bullied since I started public in the forth grade until ninth grade
I never told anyone so I kept things to myself
Until I couldn't take it anymore and I started being rebellious towards my parents "I lied to them and I started hanging out with the wrong crowd"
The summer of my ninth grade year I met this guy and he ended up using me for nude pictures of myself
I was depressed, I stopped eating, and I slept a lot
By the time School started up again people called me a hoe until I couldn't take it anymore "I told my parents what happened and they criticized me"
I felt so bad that I started cutting myself because of my actions
I felt unstable at the point that one night I slept in an empty house with my best friend
"we popped pills and she was messed up"
I had to get her out the house
We slept behind a church and we ended up getting caught
"I cut myself for it because I felt as if it was my fault that my best friend had to go to the hospital"
Later on that year I lost my virginity to a random stranger in a garage ... It wasn't my choice but we were both drunk at the time
I used to cut myself for my mistakes
Some of the things that happened to me I should have never did "I was bullied, criticized, used, and outspoken so much that became rebellious and I chose to cut myself for my actions because I felt so guilty "don't judge me"