on the cusp of 17A Poem by kicksziuziutwo nights before I turned 17on the cusp of 17, you lay on the floor with a girl you barely knew yet loved anyways, and hugged him tighter than you probably should have, but also cried a little, inside, when they sang what used to be your favourite song - not that they knew - and you learned you could get drunk on things other than alcohol, like hormones and deafening music, but also on things like alcohol - like lots and lots of expensive drinks that you paid for because it’s your birthday and you love everyone including that classmate you don’t really talk to or know that well, who sent you a message at 2AM that made you cry because it was all you needed to hear and you are no longer afraid of the future and what he said was your greatest birthday present, but you learned you must be able to enjoy the present, your dwindling freedom and naivety and innocence, your oblivion, like ozone, slowly eroding, the artist in you is on life support, but you waste her drawing pens on writing equations and essays, sounding older than you really are, dressing older than you really are in short skirts, yet cowering in fear from the men who follow you at night but also offer you potato chips and ask you if you’re over 18, when you’re actually not even 17 yet. So when are you ever ready to transcend the verge, to take the plunge and grow up?
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Added on November 11, 2015 Last Updated on November 11, 2015 Tags: birthday, growing up, school, adolescence |