someone you know

who am i? do you know? this is vol. 1. i read a story with a similar vibe and it inspired me to write this poem. after a while, i just started adding more to it so please read vol. 2 and 3. the difference is just after the tenth stanza. enjoy!

 

Who am I?

Does it matter?

You know me after all

But I know you better

 

Again you call on me

To be the hero that draws you out

Of your pathetic misery

You know it wouldn’t last

But ‘tis true that I would suffice

At least for now

At least for a little while

At least for this night

 

Did you miss me?

I know I can be insanely addicting

Does it bother me? Not at all

Just glad to help you break that fall

You say you need me to retain your sanity

But by calling me, hasn’t it escaped you already?

Oh, well, your choice, but you must know

There’s a rebound to every throw

Don’t say I didn’t warn you

 

Now look at me, tell me what you see

Are you ready?

Are you ready to create me?

It takes guts you know

And this asinine urge for reckless abandon

To be blinded, to lose, with all desperation

To forget and gain temporary satisfaction

 

Alright then, take it slow

Or make it quick in one swift blow

Whatever pushes your buttons

Works fine either way for me

Oh, just make sure to press real hard and deep

Until you see the rubies creep

And let them stain the dagger for a moment

In scarlet oozing waves of delight

 

There! You did it! There I am again

Smiling and gaping at your twisted empty stare

Yes, bask in that wondrous blinding shielding pain

Take in the sight of crimson

And the tear from which it came

Yes, keep looking

Keep feeling

And for a moment feel alive

Forget the stupid sadness

And heartbreaking goodbyes

 

Yes, my friend, I am always here for you

You know how to reach me

I’ll always be there to save you

Thanks? No, forget it

For in a while my twin, Regret

Would fill you up and take my place

Consequences, what can I do?

 

But then I’m worth it, don’t you agree?

Because I take you to places with me

I take you to this swirling vortex of compulsion

Fueled with passion

Devoid of reason

I take you away from that lonely cell

And make you whole again

Ah, the irony

So what if I would kill you eventually?

Nothing can help you escape me

 

I see we’ve met several times

My marks still there with you

You’ve been lucky

My friend hasn’t come to claim you

But he will

I know in time

Patience is his greatest virtue

As is obsession my greatest crime

 

Yes, I know, I can tell you love me

And steadily, to my delight

You’ve been needing me more and more

What can I tell you?

My edges love you too

 

So, until next time then

Or maybe later on

See, I’m drying up

The battle again you have won

So I guess there would be another day

And since you are here to stay

Hopefully you still get lonely

And depressed and melancholy…

Or not…what can I say?

I enjoy being around

I wish to stay

 

Who am I?

Does it matter?

The fact is you keep needing me

And I know you will until that fateful day

When instead of saving you

And helping you

And releasing you

I waste your life away…

Author's Note

this is a free structured poem. hope it hits the intended mark and is able to express the proper thought or meaning. let me know what you think!