Unsaid

It's a spoken poetry :)

Unsaid

Why do things suddenly appear when you don’t need them?

When they don’t have anything to do with you?

 When they can’t do something to make you?

There is this blessing in disguise,

who is absolutely not my ideal type

Nagger, yea! A word to define him

I never imagined

How deeply... deeply I wish

to be with him...

Only I with him!

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BANG! Went my heart.

I stared at his smile

he’s happiness

his eyes

it’s true, he’s happy

he... he’s not alone

(Pause)

Wait. Who am I again?

Who am I?

Who am I to be hurt?

Who am I TO FEEL THIS WAY?

Who am I to complain?

Who am I?

It’s all his fault... I mean,

It’s all my hearts fault!

I want to ask him

Confront him

Whether I stop? or continue?

To kiss the pain? or kiss the rain?

(Gulp)

Tears walk up slowly...

On the peak of the mountain, my best friend

My best best friend

Eyes blury

My heart into pieces, uttering

“I’m being left again...

being abandoned, emotionally... yea”

I exclaimed.

I don’t know what to do

I don’t care about the stars shining bright

about the moon who’s looking at

I don’t mind everything

I don’t mind what may come

I just don’t mind everything!

All I long is love

All I dreamt of is his...

his sweet respond, yes

his heartbeat

but then, everything is left unsaid

how I treat him

all... all... such a waste!

The cold breeze, I felt

Tossed my tears away

As I lay on the grasses

Talking to the stars, is where I end up

“I wish I am still singing

Twingkle twingkle star, London Bridge”

Where my problem is a chewing gum

Where I just crave for a lollipop, and

Not him, not love...

 

A tap on my shoulder

Awakens my inner

A voiceless of, “it’s okay

to be hurt, to be in pain

to be alone, to be left.

I went through that.

Dont you remember?

When I called you

You were busy glancing at him

When I blessed you

You gave him your time, your effort

Your sacrifice...

When I supported you, take care of you, cradled you

You... you thank him, for saving you

Beyond your limits, is where I pushed you

I don’t expect a lot, I swear

But to him, you were so devoted

I appreciated at first, but too much...

too much can make you

too much can be painful too...

Yes, I wasn’t expecting a lot

because I love you...

that’s it

I love you

that’s who I am

I love you even if you don’t know

I love you even if you don’t have time to know

I love you even if you don’t want to know

Yes, I love you, I do

And that’s what I do

To love you,

even if you don’t believe

even if, no one believes

even if no one will believe

But this is true,

I LOVE you

co’s you’re my child

I love you, since the beginning

I still love you till the end of the age

and yes, I will be loving you

even if it’s him you only love

it’s him you treasure

it’s him your prince

Yes, I will be loving you

co’s that’s who I am

Don’t waste this!

 Remember!

You’re the apple of my eye

My own, my own, my own

My treasure, my princess...

My child,

You’re being loved , don’t worry

Stay still,

Don’t forget

Hold on

You’re being loved, sincerely, passionately

You’re being loved, don’t worry

This I promise

I am here

Keep your head up co’s

I will be loving you.”

I sucked my tears

Follow His whisper...

So that’s how life works

What I longed for is true

Whom I thought of  is the mistake

Yes, that’s reality!

The blessing in disguise

became my history.

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