Alejandra

This is a poem I wrote about a friend of mine, Alejandra, who was raped by her stepfather for over ten years.

In this bed I lay my head to sleep.

I pray the Lord my soul to keep.

I wish that I could die today.

Please God, take my breath away.

Daddy came in again tonight.

What used to scared me now leaves me without fright,

just confused feelinga and a tummy in knots.

Daddy only does it because he loves me alot.

Mommy doesn't know, he says mommy wouldn't care.

Afterwards he throws away my underwear.

When he's done he leaves like a monster in the night.

Turns off the light and leaves me with blurred sight.

Sometimes I wonder, how could this be?

How, oh God, will I ever break free?

When will this stop?

Should I call the cops?

What would they do, what would they say?

Would they be mean and take Daddy away?

I love Daddy, I really do.

But he says if I tell, our lovew will be through.

Oh God, I pray everyday.

I pray for the wisdom to know what to say.

But will you answer, do you care?

Don't you understand I have secrets to share?

Secrets that east me up inside.

Secrets that seem to bury me alive.

God, I just can't do this anymore.

God, I think he's opening the door.

Oh wait, or is it mommy standing there?

She's telling me that she does care.

She's hugging me and has the phone in her hand.

She's telling me that Daddy's a not a good man.

She says that she's on the phone with the cops.

She says that she's going to change the locks.

Daddy's leaving, never to come back.

Daddy's leaving, how should I react?

I cry as Mommy holds my hand.

She helps me to get up and steadies me as I stand.

We walk out the room and the cops are outside.

Daddy's against the car, bloody but alive.

I look down and realize I have breasts and curled hair.

I am not the five year old girl still laying there.

Author's Note

This is a true story that ones of my friends told me about her life. Please tell me what you think(:

Reviews

[Laura Maidah]

A desperate prayer-poem. Brilliant. I don't really flatter much. Nice!

[marytownsend]

So many young girls fall victim to the abuse of people who are suppose to love them. This breaks my heart but tells a powerful truth. We all need to speak out to end this nightmare. Powerful, truthful poem and great writing!