Natural Causes

I am standing on the highest cliff

In the Grand Canyon, I’m looking down

Towards all the small details that nature created

And maybe towards my own future

The one I will build in few seconds away

And nature will do its job, natural causes.

 

I am normally sick of heights

And now I’m sick of all the people around me

That tell me how much what I feel for you

Is just a passing phase in my life

And how I don’t really love you

It’s my dick who calls the shots, natural causes.

 

But these people are so ignorant

And so not aware of what love is

Because they never found themselves on the same cliff as mine

Looking down while thinking about you

If I should or shouldn’t I, all my life is passing by

Good thoughts, bad thoughts, natural causes.

 

In few days from now I will be home

Sending you an apologizing letter with some money

Payment for my guilty conscious, to clear myself of debt to you

Only there is no debt and there is no real conscious

There is only love at its purest form, one I would die for

If you just asked me to, try me. Natural causes are calling.

 

After the letter is sent and tears are shed

There will be a day of forgiveness, in which I will pray before god

For you to give me a chance to hug and say with a broken heart

How much I miss you

And how happy I am that you found another man

That is giving you what I never could: Calmness, safety, natural causes.

 

I will die one day, we all do, nothing else is certain

But when I give my soul back to the taker

I will know that I lived my life to the fullest

Loving you, having you, even if for a limited period of time

And even if my actions were the ones who sent you to another

My love stayed the same, real as natural causes are.

 

Standing on the verge of a rock I still believe

That nothing is without a reason and that you never came too easy

It wasn’t your fault that I wasn’t there when you needed me the most

It was me who made the wrong choices; it was me who is paying the price

And because of that I accept the verdict

And I am willing to let go. Natural causes made me.

 

And I know the end; I see it in my mind…

It is not one that involves me jumping off a cliff in Grand Canyon

While ignorant people are running theories about who’s calling the shots

And it’s not you with the other man that I see in the image

There are no more bad or good thoughts to show for

There are just us, and the love we once shared, real natural causes.

 

At the present, the ring that you once refused is still there, next to my bed

Sometime in the future I am old and waiting for death, holding a wrinkled hand

You smile, knowing that I came back and made every effort

To make you happy, I feel complete again,

While giving back my soul I see love in your eyes

I slowly go away and exhale briefly. Natural Causes take me.