Some Days are Better Than Others

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     Some days are better than others since you're gone.  My grief is not silent, it screams.  When I ride down the road I scream for you...I want you so badly.  My life is not the same anymore without you.  I'm trying to get a life and live, but my hearts not in it. 

     You were my life be it right or wrong and I even tried to get you to put some distance in between us.  I wanted you to travel, see things, enjoy life.  When you had Serenity your face glowed the whole four and a half months you got to mother her.  You were so happy.  You were like an Angel on earth.  Now I know you have to be the prettiest Angel in heaven.

      My grandbaby reminds me of you.  So sweet and happy all the time. She is beautiful like you.  She is your baby and you were my baby.  You left me and her forever.  She didn't even know you, her own mother.  I cry every time I see her, because you're not here.  I know she needs me, but I'm so afraid to get close and give my whole love.  I'm taking a chance to get hurt.  My heart is so fragile right now.  It's not your fault Honey, so don't ever think that.  I will love you to the moon and back for as long as I can take a breath.

     Well Honey, please show me a sign that you are around me.  I will be waiting for the day I can see you again and we can be together.  YOU ARE MY LOVE AND ALWAYS WILL BE.  I MISS YOU and yes some days are better than others.....Mommy