Y.O.L.O

mini story about me

I'm only 22 and have plans for my death,

you may think I'm crazy for planning ahead.

But people come and go at the blink of and eye,                                     and whoever said the young don't die was a lie.

I received some devastating news at the age of 21,

started telling myself "imma start living life - having fun".   

That was over a year ago, and its just sinking in,

a lot of people fight, but not many of them win.

Now what's the odds of my survival in this life time?

I can step outside, get shot and then its my time, 

and how many people would really remember me?

I stayed in the house, went to work came home to go to sleep,

nothing was ever new, I was living on repeat,

So I don't really have anyone that's truly there for me,

I pushed anyone away , that showed the cared for me

and I admit that's what kind has me scared to leave.

Some said "You should sell your soul to the devil for a new life."

i refuse to, i'm living to see the white light.

Procastanation to like many is what got the best of me.

While they are putting off college papers,

im putting off living life, being me.

Now the clock is ticking slow and I'm living a timed life,

and before i lay down for my internal resting, I have to get my mind right.

Accept my blessings as they come,

and start living for me.

I was too busy taken care of everyone else's from the age of 16.

So i lost sight of who i was, 

and what i wanted to be.

I allowed myself to give up, on who i was meant to be

my dreams faded, and who you see before you is 

who I settled on being.

So as I sit here, you looking at me, tears forming in my eyes,

because what you fail to see, I may smile I may joke and laugh quite often,

but our lives are getting shorter not longer.

And everyday im getting closer to the day they predicted, 

dont even know know if imma make it to that point of living

Now what i learned between this year and last.

Theres no going back, so the past i must cherish.

Don't plan for tomorrow, its not even here yet.

So that leaves today, and its what you make it, whatever god gives me in like imma take it.

you only live once

Y.O.L.O

Author's Note

have a video version www.youtube.com/iamkyebri