the email.

A Story by Nina Love

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yeah it made me happy, chris,
but ignorance is only bliss until you find out
that what you thought was real was just a lie.

and chris, i told you that losing my virginity wasnt a big deal,
but the truth is,
i was waiting until i was in love with someone who loved me back.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Padzalicious™
Date: Sep 11, 2008 11:19 AM

cuz it made you happy
and ignorence is bliss

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥N!NJA♥
Date: Sep 11, 2008 11:08 AM

WHY did you say you did?
WHY did you keep saying it?

and even after lying to me
i still want to be with you.
do you hear me?
I STILL WANT TO BE WITH YOU.

and just a heads up...
when i see you on friday
i might cry.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Padzalicious™
Date: Sep 11, 2008 11:01 AM

i want to love you
i want to feels things again
i just dont know wat it is anymore

i understand if u dont wat to deal with this
im sry

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥N!NJA♥
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:54 AM

so you dont love me.
honestly, chris, lies will make me lose my heart
quicker than anything else.

i cant tell you what my hearts saying, chris.
you dont want to hear it.
your first comment proves that.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Padzalicious™
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:52 AM

i say i love you to make you happy
i dont want you to become like me
so ill do or say almost anything to make sure that you dont

i know what i am
and wat i used to be

wat is your heart saying
thats so scary?

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥N!NJA♥
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:45 AM

im glad you have tina
to keep you here
but i need you to know that
shes not the only one who needs you.
your not an a*****e
sometimes your just a little insensitive
and if all you feel is hate
how can you say you love me?
i worry about you because
i care
because i love you
more than anyone in my world.
i dont think you really get
just how much you mean to me.
how could i not think about you?
and how could thinking about you be a waste?
i know its cliche', but i cant ignore my heart.
i can hear what my heart wants,
and it scares me.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Padzalicious™
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:37 AM

its not your fault
im just used to be this way
that i forgot how to be happy
now im just an a*****e
depressed a*****e
fueled by hate

f**k it dude
im glad i have a sister that needs me
or id have been outah here
a long time ago

dont stress er worry about me
ever
dont waist another though about me
and this s**t i created

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥N!NJA♥
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:32 AM

im sorry, chris
i dont know what to tell you
i just wish that...
idk.
i wish you could be happy
(i wish i could make you happy)

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Padzalicious™
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:28 AM

i found out something sad

i cant hear my heart
im really really trying too
ive been ignoring it for to long i guess
that it just feels different levels of pain

i guess ill just have to learn to live with it
like a disabled person

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥N!NJA♥
Date: Sep 11, 2008 10:23 AM

Hey babe
whats goin on?