I Forgive You

This is something from the heart.. Just realized that i cant be free until i forgive those who hurt me!

 

Through this eighteen years men have done nothing but hurt me in this life

Doing nothing right

But cause anger and pain

Making me bitter over and over again

But this poem is not for them, it is really just for me

Because once I forgive them I can actually be free

 

Uncle Copeland, uncle Copeland my mind plays back to several days

Where I'd walk into your house and you'd look at me and say

Let me see those girls, did you wash good

And because of my age I never really understood

That what you were doing was called molestation

That you were building me into one of the most hateful creations

For many years I hated you, though I didn't even know

Because you were the only male figure to which I could go

But then a hot day in July you raised the bar

This act you committed would be way too far

You took what was mine you unlocked a door

My stolen youth I could never restore

But the moral of me telling that story is so I can be free

So I forgive you Copeland

Not for you but for me

 

Come and watch this movie with me mama sine, daddy here I come

But who knew you'd be alot of things but daddy wasn't one

First it started with you disappearing for weeks upon a time

But then she got fed up and left you behind

You went on with life but I filled with regret

How could I be expected to just move on and my father just forget

But I did for some years and unconsciously my heart grew cold

Physical youth but inside a bitter old soul

Then you came back only to walk out again

Leaving me vulnerable for the love of many men

A father figure, I hoped for one I could keep

One standing right there at all times within reach

You came back but it was past too late

A bitter seed in my heart had now turned to hate

And then when I thought you were here for me to hold

You once again left, your reasoning’s untold

But today I forgive you

I want to be free

So Rodney its okay

Not for you but for me

 

Last but not least many wonder why

But you hurt me to my heart

Because you watched me cry

You came to my heart breaking down barriers

Trusting you fully when you said I’m gonna marry her

Inseparable in my mind, thought that we'd always be

Knowing you were that only one who really loved me for me

Leave me, no you'd never do such a thing

Treated me like Elizabeth and mutually you were my king

Despite my many flaws you loved me more

Than any man I’d ever thought had loved me before

But then you did that very thing, my biggest fear

You walked out of my life, my eyes could no longer hold back the tears

Because you represented every other man I’d already had

Taking my heart with you, once again sad

Hurt, angry, mean, and upset

I vowed to never let another get my best

But today I stand ready to be free

I forgive you Isaiah

For you and for me

 

Many don't understand that forgiving is for them to move on

The hurt of a situation they cling to, forgetting they'd held on

Everybody makes mistakes we say and act as if it didn't burrow deep within our hearts

Then souls beyond human reach

But to move on, and be set free too

Don’t forgive for them forgive just for you

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Andie]

Oh My God. Wow... this is filled with a lot of emotion, and it definitely came through in the words. Reading it feels like listening to a song. I do hope to see some more of this beautiful poetry! Welcome to WritersCafe!

[Brandi Lynn]

I really like how you open with the tone of the poem, and how you end each respective mans part with you forgiving them. This is a great poem, revealing a lesson that is very hard to learn, and to act upon. I'm happy for you that you can finally forgive these men.
I also like the flow, though in some instances, I stumbled over a few spots. But overall, good work!
Now for some constructive parts :) -

I would add some more punctuation in a couple spots, for instance "Leave me no you'd never do such a thing", I'd make it Leave me - no, you'd never do such a thing.
"One standing right there at all times within my reach"...to make it flow a little better, I would omit the word "my".
"And then when I though you were here for me to hold" ...just a spelling mistake - thought
"Where'd I walk into your house and you'd look at me and say"...where I'd walk into your house, maybe?