Dependent Upon IndependenceA Story by Laura LuskDependent Upon Independence As he sat staring into the serenity of
the pond he had become so familiar with, he thought about the first time he
encountered it thirty one years ago. He was just a boy with a lot on his mind
desperately in search of somewhere to ponder the cards he had been dealt in the
game they referred to as "life". The pond called his name. It begged
him to sit on its sandy bank. He had thrown himself on the ground in anger at
the world around him and was instantly comforted by the nothingness that swept
through his mind. Looking back, it seemed nothing had
changed since that day. Nothing except her. He had always been a man of great
independence. He lived by himself, for himself. No, he was not lonely. He
bragged to his concerned peers about how he relied on no one except himself. He
was content. Then he met her. From the beginning, she had captivated
him. He had never expected it to transform from harmless flirty banter one
morning at the coffee shop to a passionate love affair in a matter of weeks.
Still, he was determined not to find himself in the vulnerable position he had
seen many much weaker than himself get trapped in. A position where he needed
her. He actually chuckled out loud thinking of
himself as a damsel in distress, needing someone other than himself. The idea
seemed quite absurd and he felt foolish for even considering it. Contented by the renewed independent
light he had shown on himself, he sat on the ground. Staring absentmindedly
into the water ahead of him, he began the ritual he knew so well. The ritual
that kept him coming back to this specific spot for the past thirty one years.
He cleared his mind and took in the nature around him, preparing to let its
soothing effect sweep into his now desolate mind. Like always, he gazed into the shadows
that the weeping willow trees threw over the water. Today, however, instead of
being the black he was used to seeing, they seemed to be a deeper color. A
black that was as dark as her pupils during those early hours of a Sunday morning where
she sat and drank her coffee, oblivious to the world around her. Yes, the
shadows possessed the same depth that the eyes he wished he could dive head
first into possessed. He turned to look at the rose bush on
the edge of the clearing that had always been his marker for finding the pond.
Instead of seeing red however, he saw a deep burning scarlet that seemed to
mirror the color of her favorite lipstick. The lipstick he silently watched her
carefully apply before they went out on the town Friday or Saturday night.
The lipstick that he found would be untraceable by the end of the night when
they arrived back to his house because of the numerous kisses he had enveloped
her robust lips with throughout the night. Feeling slightly uneasy, he laid back,
sprawling out on the bank, putting his hands behind his head. He searched the
sky for the burning ball of hydrogen and helium that he knew would not fail
him. He spotted it fighting to break free from beneath a cloud. However instead
of seeing orange, the sky held a ball of deep tangerine that beamed rays of
light and energy on the planet that orbited around it. An energy that he
recognized immediately as the same energy that he found himself overcome
by on a daily basis when she smiled at him. Startled, he jolted up. He caught his
troubled reflection in the pond that looked like it would feel almost as smooth
as her velvet cheek felt against his thumb. He was alarmed to see a man he did
not recognize staring back at him. What had this woman done to him?! He rushed off in panic to find her. He
had to end things before they went farther. As he sprinted off, he tripped over an
overgrown tree root and nearly collided with the trunk of his
favorite cyprus tree. In the afternoon light, he thought the light
tan of the bark seemed to be almost the exact same shade as her sun kissed
shoulders were due to their recent day spent on the beach together. He'd have
to examine her petite shoulders more carefully when he found her. Before, of
course, telling her he had no choice but to erase her from his life forever.
Before it was too late. © 2013 Laura Lusk |
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Added on September 26, 2013 Last Updated on September 26, 2013 |