Droupadhi while visiting Hasthinapuri

I visited Hasthinspuri along with my husbands planchapandava brothers . The ambience in Husthinaputi was excellent all happy and both mothers Kunthidevi and Gandhari Devi were in the courtyard busy talking about what is happening in Hasthinapuri as well as in Indhraprastha. Gandhari Devi was describing the architecture of Indraprastha and vision to include entertainment options along with other options. Beautiful garden surrounding the building gave real but calm vibe to the astonishing buildings she remarked.
I was happy over there same time had some issues also as everyone was looking at me ask if they were judging and evaluating me. Their faces and eyes were not reflecting same messages towards me. In general I was accepted that feeling itself way beyond than
reassurance.I was comparing when I was in Indraprastha I was free and mother Kunti was always helpful as well as respectful in everything she does. Five Brothers were excellent when it comes to how to take care of me. Arjun was busy all the time.
Today Duryodhan was not happy with me and I can see from his face same thing with Karnnan too. I was thinking about the incident happened during time when Duryodhanan visited Hadthinapuri for the first time he was walking on the regular tile of the front courtyard in solid floor but acted as if he was walking through water doubting it was water and everybody laughed at him and he was so mad. When I thought about that incident automatically I slowly became at ease and his look with some arrogance didn't bother me at all. When it came to Karna he has all the right to be upset with me and I do respect that. The insult I did it to Karna at the time of the wedding days was more than he could chew. So it became even at present.
We stayed there few days including the weekend and returned to the Indraprastha. I was so happy because I can be free and not to be bothered about how I have to talk , how to behave, how to include everyone in the loop and few more small ailments. We reached already in inddhraprastha. I slept few hours during the journey. When we reached Lord Krishna was waiting there for us. I was so happy to see Lord Krishna. Arjun seemed as more happier than me to see Lord Krishna. I became too jealous that both of them went out to discuss something or just to spend time together. Lord Krishna looked at me and told me they will be back soon and don't be upset with Arjun. I was upset even if both of them said they will be back soon.