Pick Your PoisonA Poem by Lindsey HigginsWe were a horror story, The stars never aligned
for us, We should’ve never met, But we did. A spark ignited our
fire and We blazed and simmered And blazed and simmered I can’t help but
remember it like yesterday, It feels so close, You and me, But you’re long gone, a
million miles away And I’m here,
wondering. Alone in that car, I sold you my soul and
my mind to the vodka And I chugged, While you inhaled
two-thousand chemicals plus my poison. Silence filled the
space between us, Because I wasn’t fooling
myself anymore, You were long gone from
that moment on. That silence never
filled the hole in my heart Or that void in your
mind that made you believe I was never the one. And I chugged. I tried not to vomit,
but the words poured out “I love you, but I can’t
do this.” I couldn’t do the
sinking, caving feeling in my chest, That suffocated me
every time I got out of that car. I couldn’t believe that
the one person, I chose to be my
person, Couldn’t grasp I was
their person too. So I chugged. Then you clenched And you pushed And you pushed me so
goddamn hard against that door It broke my heart. I felt it crack, snapping into three
different pieces, One for you, one for
me, and the piece that for lost Somewhere between all
the yous and mes And I chugged Then you slapped, My face burning as harsh
as the liquor on my throat. My cheek was pulsing
since my heart wasn’t. And I scrambled, While you stayed
silent, inhaling two-thousand more chemicals But exhaling my poison. My clothes disheveled
all over my body And nothing fits quite
the same as it did before. And I got out. The door slams hard
behind me, And to this day I’m not
sure who closed it, Me or you. I can’t help but think, I closed the door on
you. © 2016 Lindsey HigginsAuthor's Note
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Added on March 14, 2016 Last Updated on March 14, 2016 Tags: Teen, Young Adult, Alcohol, Smoking |