i'd give you everything (i'm sorry)

alt. point of view of more than this (closer)

we’ve never been friends

never even been lovers

too much bitterness between us

too many unsaid words

too much we can’t let go

(promises that shouldn’t have been made,

grudges that have yet to fade)

 

now we’re here

i didn’t mean for this to happen

to let selfish want pervade

this was never supposed to be

but here we are tonight

(not friends, not lovers)

sticky, aching, bruised

tangled together here

 

i hold you in my arms

breath steady, even

i can be your anchor

i can fill the empty spaces

(but only if you want me to)

 

i put my hands on your hips

sear my touch in your bones

bruise your lips with my kiss

wrap you in my flesh

(let me make you whole again)

 

i drink you in

and cover you with my scent

even though i know

you’ll never let us be

more than this

(you know i’d give you everything)

 

when i wake tomorrow

you’ll be gone

cold sheets were warmth once laid

catching the last shadows back home

running again

(always running,

it’s the only way you feel safe)

 

a little piece of my heart follows after

as it always does

the place where it’s gone

throbbing, aching

but that’s okay

(because i know it’s with you,

and i would give you everything

every little broken, shredded piece of me

it’s all yours)

 

i know it’s a vicious cycle

a mockery of the real dance

we could be so much more than this

we could be passion ignited

the envy of the world

(if only i hadn’t made such big mistakes,

if only i hadn’t ripped a hole in your chest

if only you weren’t still bleeding)

 

even though i know you won’t stay

even though i know you’re scared of loving me

of loving anyone

i’ll keep on coming back

(because i know you’ll be there

and i know you need this

your string has been tied to mine

and i won’t cut it away)

 

i know you won’t say

what’s really on your mind

i know you don’t trust me

not anymore

but that’s okay

because i have so much left to say

(i love you, i love you, i love you)

you’re breaking my heart with every weighted silence

but that’s okay

(because it’s you,

and i would give you everything)

 

(i’m sorry it took so long

i’m sorry i wasn’t there when you needed me

i’m sorry

i’m sorry

i’m sorry

i’m here now

i’m trying so hard to be what you want

to be what you need

i’d give everything for you

i’d be anything for you)

 

you pull me closer,

closer,

instead of speaking

and for once

i follow your lead

(because i would do anything you ask,

don’t you see?)

 

if i were a better man

i’d let you go

because i know no matter how much i want to

i know i can never mend what i broke

(if i were a braver man

i’d ask you to stay

and i’d tell you i’m broken too)

 

no matter how much it hurts

i’ll always be back

because i don’t know how to quit

(i will never give up on you

not again

not this time

not until you send me away)

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