How Undesirable

I was upset. And feeling so many emotions made it worse. I tried to flame my emotions but felt a calm while writing. Can you sense the shift?

I want to turn the hands on this face
that weathers misfortune in its wake
the hands of time,
turn back the clock,
to see what really happened.

Where did it fall apart,
where did it start to wither;
Slide away, and from my grasp,
another storm thundered in the distance
Waiting.

Misfortune beckoned like an unanswered call
Ringing and ringing and ringing
echoing through the empty halls
resonating and reverberating in the confines of my skull

Where and how did I go wrong
challenging what happened
questioning the fates and wondering all the time.

How could I have known the feelings that manifested
Breathing heavily in his chest,
With me, he has contested in a challenge we both accepted

Look away, small soldier, look away!
Your uncertainty clouds my vision
and blocks the hazy gray that's coming in from the impending storm just over 

the horizon.

You wonder and question
You analyze and investigate

Just let it be! For heaven's sake. Just let, what needs to be...

Your hands are calloused from your soul
Your heart weighs heavy in your hands
Trust me, I whisper, I can feel a guiding light.
Trust me. I Know, I know.

My heart beats slow, methodical
A rhythm I'm still not sure of.
Your footsteps linger in my ears,
Of that, I know for certain.

Together, tha-thump. Together.

Hold my hand, Pensive Mind. Hold it tight and trust..

My spirit is slowly fading.. 

 

I have a sadness in my eyes
Not sure how to articulate it.
The spirits' sadness projects through me.
For you, I hear them weeping.

Just trust, they say. Dear, trust.
You need to, I just know it.
Relax and let your troubles fade...
One day, you'll awake and it will just be good.
You will feel at rest.

Author's Note

Can you sense where the shift occurred?