our pain

poetry/spoken word

Our Pain

The one thing that tears at my soul

The only thing I can shed tears for anymore

I suffer through your pain as if it were my own

But I suffer through my pain all on my own

Silently

Peacefully

By my f*****g self

I'm not overly righteous

I don't blame it on you

I just need some time to deal with myself

There's demons in my closet darker than those of horror films

should be a reality based series based on the ghosts of his past

Not only do you not see my pain

You don't see me

Like an infomercial on the TV

Muted and looked past

I'm only neccesary when it's beneficial

a superficial relationship at best

No arms to go around me when I feel like my heart is about to jump from my chest

anxiety driven tachycardia

no visible symptoms

pain that cuts so deep it's like my soul has lacerations

as usual, no visible symptoms

I hope I'm forgiven

I've given

And given

So much, there's hardly an ounce of me left

and after all that.... do you know what I have left?

The same thing I've always had...

My god dammed self

As hard headed as the one I hate the most

zero chance that I would openly ask for help

This isn't me pleading for your guilt

This isn't me begging for your shoulder to cry on

This is a simple request to be given the time and the space to let me ride on

Let me hop on two wheels and ride into the sunset

I've given all I had...To give.. I've got none left

I have to keep these last few pieces of me...

for they're all I've got to hold onto or clutch

This is an apology

                          Not for one more minute, of one more day, could I possibly give a f**k.