Did you even know me

you only thought

You say 

That you know me

Better than I know myself 

You are so wrong

You have never looked so stupid 

You look at me like I am crazy 

A monster 

You never knew me 

You have no idea who I am

You didn’t know anything

You don’t  know about how sometimes I can’t force myself to shower
Can’t brush my teeth 

Can’t brush my hair 

You don’t know how many meals I skip

How I stare at my food 

How nauseous food makes me 

You don’t know how I feel about me

I want to peel my skin off

I want to break all my bones

I want to be here no longer 

You don’t even know how you make me feel

You make me feel like everything always has to be about you

You make me feel like no one but you cared about me

You make me feel like everything you did was okay

You make me feel like you were all I ever needed 

You make me feel like all of your problems were mine 

You never knew me. 

You never will.