A cry from desolation

What's on the inside

I though I knew myself

I thought I was fine

And I mean from the outside it may seem that way

Even fooled myself for a while

Thought I was happy now

But then you find moments like these

Where it feels like the weight of the whole world is on your shoulders

And as cliche as it may sound

That is truly how I feel inside

I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs

Screaming the breathe outta me

Screaming myself outta existence

Where peace and solitude lie

To disappear and never return

To fade into the world of lost souls

To fade into the unknown where all broken hearts go

There are days when no one is able to reach me

That's cause I'm too high up in the sky

Floating on cloud 9

Then there are days like this one right here

Where still, no one can reach me 

But this time round,

It's cause I'm too far down in the ground

And no one's willing to risk falling down this hole

No one gives a damn about me

No one's willing to pull me up

Wait, Actually, It's not that they aren't willing

It's that they aren't able

I don't blame them though

My darkness weighs me so far down

Not even the worlds most content sould

Could pull me out.

Author's Note

It might be long but it is worth the read.