Anomie

to break apart a

hole drawn in the window
and forget that
words must have
some certain and plenty
certainty and order
and that be done
in the process of pulling
strings together to gather
something stirring
inside my self
and to think it ends
with end of every
meaning now lost to me
yes to break a part
no one knew
was kept hidden
inside my self
and to know it ends
in a repetition
of mute routines
and a pain forsaken
despair and joy
despair and anguish
despair and lack
of a total order
and lack
of any and every
and lack
rejoicing in some
side of my self
and lack of will
to break apart
a whole in the window
wake up to sanity
in sanity
and stay and lack
out.                                      

Author's Note

Anomie, also spelled anomy, in societies or individuals, a condition of instability resulting from a breakdown of standards and values or from a lack of purpose or ideals. [from: http://www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/26587/anomie]