On you

A poem about love and loss.

On you,

There are a thousand words I could say

A thousand smiles I could make

A thousand things I could take

And describe in excruciating detail

Until you cringe at how clearly I remember you

Because I do.

I remember you the most

Your laugh, your eyes, your ghost.

The name I have to pretend not to be excited to hear

Because when I hear you mentioned I grin from ear to ear.

Like a little kid 

Who wants to tell you about their made up game

I'd tell you all about mine

Where we grow up together and kiss in the rain.

Because you are the person 

I would spend the rest of my life with

And not notice the years flying by,

Which is why when I was leaving

You were my only selfish goodbye.

I'm sorry, that on you there is so much more to say,

but I'll let my death conveniently get in the way.

Reviews

[ETERNITY]

So wonderfully romantic and sad but so lovely I signed back in with my long, long, long password to give a review. I just love it. Thanks for sharing.

[Eury]

This is incredibly beautiful! Amazing work.

[Alli Chaos]

I think my favorite part is the end.
"Because you are the person
I would spend the rest of my life with
And not notice the years flying by,
Which is why when I was leaving
You were my only selfish goodbye."

The selfish goodbye can be taken many different ways. Initially I thought this meant you left this person because you had to, but let them know how deeply you felt upon leaving. Or perhaps it's the only person you ever cared about and your 'selfishness' is really taking a moral or ethical stance on something. I'm not sure. I'd love to know more!

[ForYouWordsWeren'tEnough]

Hey Alli Chaos,
I'm really glad you like the poem! 'selfish goodbye' had a double meaning for me as well while writing, both a literal quite personal one I'll leave up to interpretation, and a metaphorical one.
I think that in a way for me all goodbye's feel like there is an element of selfishness in them as they are our way of coping with leaving. A single goodbye can change everything, and so I worry about saying goodbye too lightly, and leaving someone with only those words.
(I feel like I'm rambling so I'll stop here, but I hope that answers some of what you wanted to know, as always though, it's up to interpretation 'selfish goodbye' can mean whatever you need it to, that is why I write, to use words to encapsulate the feelings I need them to).

[Lynn Mary]

This is really beautifully written.
I truly enjoyed the read.