perfect illusionA Poem by malakkoubarsometimes, you feel like you re melting and nothing in this world can pick you up. you are down and everything in your mind is negative.Day 1, scene 1: She felt like feeling nothing; you are waiting aren’t you you are always waiting for a sign something that will help you believe in him and all of his lies. You are in denial about the truth Never questioning his excuse Say you think highly of yourself But you still entertain his abuse What happened to your soul? I see the bruises and the scars He never deserved to touch your canvas How would you forget that you are art Day 1, scene 2: vow of silence She spoke out of fear and you ignored her She spoke out of pain and you did not listen She spoke out of love and you walked away So now she speaks of nothing
Day 2, scene 1: no title required No one can know the things she has endured like she has never claimed to be perfect her flaws tell her story There is no need to hide them
Day 2, scene 2: Trust issues She gave herself in small doses So when people left it would hurt less As relationships came and went The doses become smaller Till she no longer felt the need to give Day 2, scene 3: Open eyes The scary part is that she knews exactly how bad You were for her And yet this did not stop her From loving you
Day 3, scene 1: Strain Head pounding, soul weary She is trying to think of a happy ending But pen to paper won’t fix this Emotions spewed out won’t make this better Words have beaten to death Solutions have hung themselves
Day 3, scene 2: She hoped You were everything she should have avoided but Your potential kept her in a place of sadness Waiting for you to change but That day never came
Day 3, Before the call: she is
restless Memories are silent killers The way they creep up unannounced Disguising themselves as innocent Knowing damn well They intend to do harm And that is the case Tonight, you will be the death of her. After the call : I know you love him, but he's no longer fighting for you I know you're having a hard time letting go, but he's no longer giving you a reason to stay sometimes love means choosing yourself sometimes love means walking away from someone who doesn't deserve you One hour later: dear self I know it is tough because you’ve given All you’ve had and they’ve decided that it Isn’t enough. You’ve taken all that you Can and in this moment, you feel like Breaking but there is lesson in the Heartache and power within pain. You Are who you are and you deserve the Type of love you’ve been brave enough to Give… Sincerely, Your inner self
Day 4: Emotional truth: F**k you for making her feel All the things you refused to. she Fells for your lies and landed Here on a pile of her own Truth. She was in love with the Idea of you but not in love with You.
Day 5, scene 1: you shine But sweetheart, you are a wolf No need to howl Over the loss Of weak men Incapable of Accepting you Day 5, scene 2: You are too good For someone Who isn’t sure about you
Day 5, scene 3: The only one worthy of you Is you In this moment You only need yourself
Day 5, scene 4: You owe it to yourself To want more of yourself
Day 6, 8:00 am: the rebirth On this morning She feels at ease The stress has gone She cannot truly explain what she feels At this very moment But it is a feeling that has escaped her For far too long She is okay
On a path to being happy again © 2018 malakkoubar |
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Added on January 17, 2018 Last Updated on January 17, 2018 Tags: A beautiful composition of broke |